what's the story morning glory

12 years and 6 days and forever!

2012-01-12T09:10:00.000-08:00

this post is a reply post to Vanessa Jezamine's - It's Still Counting post.

i am known as someone who is difficult to approach and temperamental.

but i'm not.

i'm just awkward and shy and a bad communicator.

so when i finally make friends,

i cherish that friend forever.

this is a post dedicated to

the one and only

Mishael Vanessa Lee Abdullah

(i first known her as Michelle Vanessa Lee)

12 years and 6 days

if you minus the 6 days and the 12 years then you'll get the date of our friendship

January 7th, 2000

it's been a long journey girl.

you're always there with me.

by my side.

high and low

happy and sad

in anger and frustration

you compliment me when no one else does

you notice me when no one else does

you worry for me when no one else care

you help me when everyone else is too busy to lend a hand

you encourage me when i'm discourage

you help me shine when i shy away

you bring out the best in me when i doubt myself

thank you so much for everything and anything and nothing

thank you for being you

thank you for your existence

thank you for believing in me

thank you for all your love and support

i wouldn't be who i am and where i am right now

if it weren't for you pushing me

dragging me out of my comfort zone.

you are my honest most loyal friend that i've ever had.

you are my number 1

12 years and 6 days and forever more to go munchkin!

a little memoirs of our younger days.

bid and greet

2012-01-11T09:12:00.000-08:00

i didnt bid farewell to 2011 and i didnt even properly greet 2012. it's the new year and i plan to pick writing again.

i guess, i have all this stress and sadness and loneliness and emptiness because i didnt let it out. i need to for my own sake.

and this year, i need to step up my game. set my goals straight and actually achieve them.

peace out.

top 3 embarrassing moments

2011-11-17T03:25:00.000-08:00

WARNING: TOO EMBARRASSING

Hi XD
i know i haven't been blogging for quite awhile.
i would consider it as a hiatus for blogging
(actually, too addicted to tumblr)

so, for starters
i'm gonna post up my top 3
most embarrassing moments in my life.

xdrum rollx

embarrassing moment #3
during my 1st semester and my 2nd semester of B.A. Hons Advertising,
i danced on stage with my fellow course-mates
for AdNite.
we danced to 2NE1 Go Away and Lady Antebellum (i don't remember the title).
oh my God!
i lead the dance since i was the one who choreographed the performance.
but damn! i forgot my steps and so does my friends.
hence, embarrassing moment of my 21st and 22nd life.

embarrassing moment #2
latifah and i went to delifrance to buy some pastries of course.
while waiting for them to wrap our pastries,
this waiter placed two cups of some hot beverages with two cookies on the plate.
and i thought it was for us, so i (dengan tak malunya) ate the cookies,
even invited latifah to ate hers.
suddenly, i saw the waiter replaced the stolen cookie,
placed them on a tray and serve whoever that orders the drinks.
i was totally, absolutely embarrassed that i really really,
appreciate latifah for not saying anything about it.

embarrassing moment #1
i forgot i was in what form.
form 4 i think,
i was a prefect and the prefect community held a farewell event for the senior prefects.
i don't know why or what that drove me to sign up my name to perform as the event's entertainment.
i sang evanescents - my immortal
I SUCK BIG TIME!!!
all the other prefects were laughing at me.
thank god it was just a rehearsal and this hot senior prefect, he told me that the song doesn't suit my voice.
the thing is, i'm not even a singer!
that's the first and the last time i'm ever gonna sing on stage in front of people.
munchkin saved the day though.
she replaced me.

okay, so that's that.
i don't have enough time to find appropriate photos,
coz i'm going to my replacement class now.

till next time,
ciao bella~
'Atiqah S.

whatever happens to my blog?

2011-06-16T05:11:00.000-07:00

apa nak update kat sini?
argh!!!
susah la umah xde internet...
my inner blogging only comes in the night.

problem is,
idk wat to blog anymore.

forever alone me

2011-04-15T11:45:00.000-07:00

WARNING: THIS POST WILL BE SO SAPPY

did i tell u abt me breaking up late last year?
i did right?
wanna knw sumthg?
i got my heart broken again by the same person.
how pathetic.

well, i had my hopes up high.
or actually, i never have my hopes high.
i just pretended like i'm alrite.
i am not.
i was never.
because i am a person with few words.
n i dnt tell ppl my problems bcoz i refused to look weak.

but he is laughing behind my back.
he definitely is.
yes, he hates my blog.
bcoz i sometimes blog abt him.
n i sometimes diss him.
but dis time, i dnt care.
i need to release dis clod up feelings i have in my chest.

for the 1st time in my life,
i felt like vomiting nt bcoz of nervousness,
but bcoz i'm too sad n i cnt do anything abt it.
i rili rili, at dis point,
felt like killing myself.

i shudn't b doing dis.
i shud seek for Allah's guidance.
Allah, Whom i shud love.
Whom i shud devote myself to.
hw is it dat i managed to cease You away?
please forgive this hideous human being.

i am not beautiful.
i am aware of it.
i dnt have the physicals like Michelle, Latifah, Amirah.
n dis cruel world dat only goes for the beauty.
i am nt meant to be in dis world.

hw did u managed to make a fool out of me?

WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING CRY?
WHY CAN'T I JUST GO TO U RIGHT NW N STAB U TO DEATH?
WHY CAN'T I JUST CASTRATE U WITH A RUSTY SPOON SO U KNW HW IT FEELS LIKE TO B UGLY?
WHY CAN'T I JUST GOD FORBID ME, TO GO STRAIGHT UP N HATE U?
WHY CAN'T I?

YOU BETTER MAKE THIS RIGHT.
YOU REALLY BETTER MAKE THIS RIGHT.

from the disappointed FOREVER ALONE,
'ATIQAH SULAIMAN.

bottled up

2011-03-29T07:59:00.000-07:00

i have tons to tell u my invisible almost to non-existent blog readers...
but i'm yet to find the time to do so...
hence, i'll keep em all bottled up for now.

bday, goodbye and hello

2011-02-05T08:20:00.000-08:00

there's nothing much to say...
i celebrated my 22nd birthday with these people.
it was also a farewell to my supervisor and my colleague.
this was also to celebrate my other colleague's promotion as assistant supervisor.
lastly, this was the welcoming to the new staffs.

picture (from left):
kak eyra (ass. spv), abg asan (spv), me, my sister, anep (excolleague), acip and hajar (new colleague).

HAPPY 22nd TO ME!!!

2011-01-28T07:18:00.000-08:00

WARNING: THIS IS GONNA BE A LONG ENTRY AND IF I MISSED OUT ON ANYONE, PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR I AM ONLY A HUMAN BEING.

Alhamdulillah!
I can't believe it,
I have lived for 2 decades and 2 years.
DECADES!!!
Am i gonna live until century?
Wow!!!

28th January 1989

That's the date that my mom kindly with love gave birth to me.
She was the one I woke up everynight when I was a little girl,
just to accompany to pee coz I was afraid of ghosts.
She cooked whatever I asked her to and
she would give try her best to get me the best baju raya every year.
That's my mom, the strongest woman I've ever met in my whole life!
Thank you Ibu!!!
(Damn it! I miss her so very dearly!!! Feels like crying)

I texted my dad today wishing myself a happy birthday,
Hahaha, he apologized for forgetting my brithday.
It's ok, but what touches me tho,
He thanked me for being his daughter.
(tears brimming in my eyes)
He raised me! Thank you ayah.

My sappy posh sister who whines all the time told me that,
my present is postponed.
It's ok, you know what she got me as pre-present?
3 pairs of underwear.
Hahahaha!!!
Thank u...I need em!
She's been with me through thick n thin.
Always forgiving tho I give her shit all the time.
I ignore her jokes, her stories.
I rolled my eyes at her, I talk rudely to her.
I'm just plain impudent but she's always there for me.
No matter what!
You I know I love you eventhough I hardly show my feelings right?

Annoying little brother didn't reply my text msg today.
Instead he wished me through FB.
What a special way of wishing your "cool" sister.
Hahaha!!!
If I am impudent to my elder sister, well, he's impudent to the rest of the family.
He never share his problems with anyone,
but somehow, at times he'll crumble n come to me.
He'll tell me things that my parents n my sister won't understand.
Thank you for trusting me.
I know you love me.
You're just too egoist to say it out loud.
hahaha...

Michelle Vanessa Lee wrote a blog about me turning 22.
She'll be 22 in 5 months and I'll be doing the same thing.
This woman breaks my wall.
She pulled me outta my comfort zone to venture out.
She taught me how to make friends.
She showers me with loyalty and kindness,
not to forget love.
People might think we're gay but we're not,
she's like a twin sister I never had.
Thanks again Munch for this incredible 11 years of friendship.
This friendship will not end even when I'm dead.
Great Mind Strong Knees!

Latifah Omar the girl who taught me all the bad things.
Hahahaha!!!
We went to see Cikgu Sheikh (discipline guy) together.
I covered her ass so many times just so she could have fun with the boys.
Hahahaha!!!
The 1st bday present I get from her was a red Converse shirt with BITCH on it.
Damn you babe!
She's been through a lot! Hell I tell you,
but she's always smiling and laughing when she's with me,
Thank you babe for showing me that it's ok to make mistake.
I love you!

Amirah Fitriah who wanted to come to Shah Alam but couldn't,
due to eye infection.
You need to filter what you eat girl,
I seriously think you're allergic to something else not just the meds.
Fashion brought us together and since then,
we've been each other halves for 4 years now.
I remember when I baby sit her due to chicken pox
and I was so confident I wouldn't get it,
ends up, I got it!
Hahahaha...
I guess, what's yours is mine and what's mine is...Mine?
hahahaha!!!
We even graduated together!
God girl, I love you!
I'm glad we met!

Aidil you jerkface!
I hate you for teaching me how to love
and you leave me,
you didnt teach me how to stop loving.
Argh!
I've been through both heaven n hell with you,
let me tell you,
though you're the biggest ass I've met in my entire life,
you have a piece of my heart.
We're awesome best friends right?
Though u don't say it, you love me right?
Hahahaha...

There are people that I'd love to thank here but I can't put you all in.
Always remember one thing,
You guys are always running around in my mind,
sometimes I get dizzy because of it.
Hahahahaha!!!
Let's still be friends in decades to come.
Promise?

A friend of mine wished me "Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki."
And I replied, "Insyallah dapat hidup samapi 100 tahun dengan rezeki yang melimpah."
He laughed and questioned why would I wanna live that long,
and I can't believe myself for saying this but I did,
"Aku nak tengok jalan yang aku lukis tu bermakna atau tidak."

Hey! I guess I am getting wiser.
Till then, thank you so much for all the love you all have given me.

Ciao bella~~~
'Atiqah Sulaiman
22 years old.

phone dilemma

2010-12-30T11:20:00.000-08:00

Right now it's 03:20 a.m, 31st Dec 2010.

In hours to come,
it'll be the end of 2010
and the starting of 2011.

Get ready for a new and upcoming (hopefully) tremendous year ahead.

anyways, according to my entry title,
yup, i have a phone dilemma.

i've set my eyes on XPERIA X10 MINI-PRO
i love it.
it's small, both touch n qwerty and it also comes in red.
however, i've just realized that it could be too small for me.
but then again, it's not like i have big fingers to begin with.
it's just that,
maybe i'm afraid that i won't be comfortable with it.
but you know,
new things need time to get accustom to right?
and i have a soft spot for sony ericsson anyway.

now, there's this other one that caught my attention.
it's also an Xperia but a different series.
this one is XPERIA X2.
this one is bigger than x10 mini pro.
it would be comfortable in my hands.
x2 also a touch and qwerty phone.
however, it does not come in red.
do i have to repaint it myself?
ahhh~~~maybe customize it with some graphic on it?
hahaha... anyways,
this is also seem like a good phone.

last but not least.
quite a shocking.
i've learned to consider other brand after i had my time with Munchkin's E63.
so, this is NOKIA C6.
i had a go with it for like 3 minutes when my colleague brought it over at work.
it's pretty comfortable typing on the qwerty pad.
it's big and spacey (sounds like a car).
only comes in white and black.
i'm not so fond of the design though.
but, this is pretty good too.

i know...
other people are all for blackberry and iphone...
seriously, i'd go for them but
with the money i make monthly,
and bills, rents, i have to eat too you know...
i don't think i can afford them.
so these 3 contenders are QUITE affordable to me,
i'll consider them.
now, it's time to choose.
so i could start saving AGAIN,
once i've paid my school fees.

till then~
ciao bella.
'Atiqah S.

Pwease Santa (puppydog eyes)

2010-11-29T04:27:00.000-08:00

Hello!!!

Hahahaha...
Excited much.

I'm posting this only because it is an appropriate time for wishing.
Hahaha...
I've been saving up but somehow rather,
my savings doesn't seem to be expanding at all...
*sigh~*

Anyways,
I will try my best and get these items to be called MY OWN!

note: I'M GETTING MY iPOD!!! WOOHOOO!!!
GOD BLESS MY SANTARINA MICHELLE!!!

Happy me is HAPPY!

Ciao Bella~~~
'Atiqah S.

welcome2 miss november

2010-11-02T09:03:00.000-07:00

WARNING: THIS POST CONTAINS ME HIJAB-LESS. IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT, GTFO! I RULE MY LIFE AND YOU DON'T. SMILE & B HAPPY.

Can you believe it?
It's already November and just 1 more month to go,
it'll be:
Bye-bye 2010
Hello 2011

Anyways,
These pictures were taken during the last week of October.
Nothing interesting happen,
just me getting active again in the selca world.

Do you know what is the most anticipated event in October?
If you guess correctly then Yes,
It's the Halloween!!!
Remember my costume from the AdFest,
yeah, I wore it again for Halloween!

I went shopping with my sister at Sunway on the 31st of Oct,
and look what I got for myself?
A BAG!!!
Finally! I love this bag so much!
From TEETOO.
Beautiful and affordable.

On the same day,
I went to cut my never ending curly hair.
It was getting too fuzzy and all tangled up,
so I decided to trim it a little bit.
The hairdresser needed to straighten my hair
to see if it's balance or not.
I asked for a fringe and a layer cut.
He didn't do a good job cutting my fringe though,
so I had to do what I have been doing for years,
RE-SNIP IT.
And Voila!

Finally!
This is me at work.
All bored and customer-less.

Sorry if the pictures aren't in their best quality.
You gotta excuse my VGA.
I'll upgrade it when I have the money,
plus, I am not a photographer,
so you have to bare with amateurish pictures.
Anyways, there are SELCAs afterall.
They aren't supposed to look professional.

*SELCA = SEL: Self, CA: Camera.

Ciao Bella~
'Atiqah S.

Listen To My Heart

2010-10-28T11:10:00.000-07:00

WARNING: THIS POST CONTAINS SAD LOVE SONGS

I'm not a poet and hardly a good writer.
I am bad at communicating and always keeps my feelings locked up.
So, please hear my heart cry through these songs.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Ciao Bella~
'Atiqah S.

bendera putih

2010-10-28T09:29:00.000-07:00

WARNING: THIS POST MIGHT BE 85% BAHASA MELAYU

Ni cerita sedih la. Sangat tak sangka perkara ni akan berlaku kat diri sendiri. Selalu nampak kawan2 kene, tapi bila kene kat diri sendiri, terduduk terus. Tak tahu nak handle mcm mane lagi.

Kalau pergi kedai selalu ada tulis,

"Once broken, considered sold."

Kalau hati manusia? Once broken? It is beyond repair. Mungkin kalau orang lain, senang untuk dia nak bangkit semula and mend their hearts. Tapi aku lain. Sebab aku tak pernah serious macam ni. And bila benda ni dah jadi, rasa macam kene sepak dengan orang yang aku tak kenal tanpa sebab.

Aku seriously cuba nak fahamkan alasan2 tu semua. Cuba nak terima kenyataan ni. Susah la, susah bila aku dah mula bina foundation on my cloud nine. That cloud nine of mine, itu yang aku panggil masa depan aku.

Sorry, kalau jiwang sangat post ni. Tapi aku memang susah nak menulis dalam Bahasa Melayu, sebab aku takut bunyinya jiwang. Tapi Bahasa Melayu ni indah, sebab tu bunyinya romantik.

Apa pun, aku dah nekad untuk kibarkan bendera putih. I'm giving up. In this battle, aku memang takkan menang sebab kemenangan memang tidak menyebelahi aku langsung.

Pat Benatar betul, "Love is a battlefield." Kita kene ada game plan kalau nak terjebak.

Aku dah penat lah. Aku buta dan bodoh.

I'm so sorry.

Ciao bella~
'Atiqah S.

special day today 20102010

2010-10-19T10:14:00.000-07:00

Since today is special (only because of the date),

I decided to not be a lazy ass and update my blog.
This time with actual pictures of me,
All taken by my dearest Kodok.

These pictures are random,
I just feel like uploading them.

Enjoy!

I'm doing a little investigation in Port Klang.
Have always been wanting to take a picture in such place.

Did I tell you I went to Penang 2 weeks ago?
Yeah, I did and guess who I met?
Miss Jyen Wan, my Skype friend and this was our 1st meeting,
surprisingly, it went well!

Kodok and I playing a little tea party.
Oh!!! How I love the milk tea!

This is Nadhirah Zamrose.
How crazy it is that people kept telling us we look alike?
Hahahaha. She's cool, I like her.

During the ADNite.
I became the Devil. Hmm...I think I look more like a cat.
My sister kept telling me that.

Oh and this handsome guy,
he's my senior. If I'm not mistaken his name is Aiman?
I'm not sure, but I did saw him several times at the faculty without knowing that he is my senior.
His character that night was one of The Cullen siblings.

According to Fatin and Mirza,
I looke like Man Kidal. And so this in the picture is Man Kei'dal.
How do you like my hotel room? Luxurious enough for only RM50?

If that (picture above) is my room,
Check out my VIEW~ when I sleep, I hear the waves hitting the shore.
Peacefull!!!

Last but not least,
I love playing dress up. Jacket courtesy of my little Kim.
Haa...I miss going out like this with my curls.

So, that's that.
Nothing much.
Hope you'll enjoy the 20102010 guys!

Ciao Bella~~~
'Atiqah S.

THIS LITTLE PRIDE, IS ALL I HAVE LEFT.

2010-10-12T15:26:00.000-07:00

what is the very crappy 'Atiqah Sulaiman doing up at 6:30 in the morning blogging and not sleeping? she's reflecting her life 3 years back. i'm not gonna tell what had happened to me because it's personal. i know, personal is not supposed to be in the dictionary of person who blogs about her life. but this is so heartbreaking.

never in my entire 21 years of living, breathing and walking on planet Earth have i ever felt my heart pains this way. i can't close my eyes and see flashes of my life 3 years ago. i've been stupid, arrogant and ignorant. i wish, i wish i could go back and start all over again.

i never ever like to acknowledge my feelings especially if i'm feeling sad. i hate this feeling, sadness. i don't mind showing my anger, i like it. bcoz i dnt feel so small when im angry. the truth really hurts and i feel it today. i am still dumbstruck of the earlier event. wow~ i can only laugh but after that i can't stop crying.

i feel stupid
i feel like ive been played
i feel so not appreciated
i feel sad
i feel disappointed
i feel so damn angry

worst is

i can actually feel my heart screaming in pain.

this is so unbearable. this is way too much than me getting only 2A's for my SPM.

if i could, i wanna quit school, quit my part time job n just run away from this place. somewhere far and never coming back. i will try to look happy tomorrow and the next day and the day after and the day after and after until i couldn't take it anymore.

hahaha...suddenly i feel like jogging but i'm too tired.

with this little pride i have left in me, i will walk away shoulders straight, heads up, nose in the air and strut my self outta the the dark hole. thank you for the time.

i still feel stupid and i don't know if i can really deal with this.

officially a worker

2010-09-28T09:00:00.000-07:00

WARNING: JAKUN-NESS AHEAD!

YES!!!
IM 21 AND I FINALLY HAVE MY VERY OWN KWSP ACCOUNT!!!
MWAHAHAHAHA!!!

after almost 3 months of working my ass off at the cd store,
and after all the pestering made by my supervisor,
also after the same reply i gave him "ESOK."

I finally have an account which means, I have a saving.
bak kata tagline KWSP,
"SIMPANAN DI HARI TUA ANDA."
hahahaha...

on the downside though,
I CAN'T RUNAWAY FROM PTPTN.
they are so~~~ gonna hunt me down for payment.
I hate loan sharks.
hahahahaha!!!

Oh!
1 more thing!
PENANG HERE I COME AGAIN!!!!
this time with a different crowd and a different scenario.
I'm going on the 8th, 9th and 10th of Oct.
Can't wait fro all the Penang drama ahead!
hahahahaha...

what am i doing?

2010-09-14T14:11:00.000-07:00

WARNING: THIS POST CONTAINS HIGH LEVEL OF JEALOUSY.

Oh what crap again?
hahahaha...
you know,
i am doing this thing called studying,
but i just...
i dont really know if im actually developing something.

i mean look...
my bestfriend Munch is nw not only traveling for work,
but she can afford to go on holiday overseas nw on her off days.
can u imagine that?
Munch, kumpul duit lg and go to NZ...
u always wanted to go there.
I support u all the way.
I just can't help with this jealousy.
sorry.

and now my other half Myra,
she's in Spore doing her training,
once she's done with that she'll be home and start working,
getting a lump sum every month...
and her network is like..
i dnt knw way huge...
but girl, i miss you damn much,
and whatever u do i'm rite behind u.

i have to do something.
oh! i want a new phone and an ipod.
i need music!

Ciao Bella~
'Atiqah S.

RAYA IS AROUND THE CORNAH!

2010-09-04T21:27:00.000-07:00

(I miss my other half who's currently in S'pore.)

HAPPY RAYA TO ALL!!!!

I only have 2 days of Raya due to work but it's ok...
As long as I get to spend the 1st day of Raya at home with my family and KETUPAT RENDANG KUAH LODEH KUAH KACANG AYAM MASAK MERAH,
I AM HAPPY!!!

HAPPY RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

can i skip the title?

2010-08-17T07:46:00.000-07:00

This is me at work.

We hardly have busy days so the shop is empty most of the time.

Posing with Kak Eyra's jacket.

It's a winter jacket actually.
It came in red too and I prefer the red one.

I don't have drawing skill and this is hideous.
This is Baby Taemin as Lucifer.
I doodles this on my broadcasting syllabus paper.

Boring kan?
Ciao Bella!
'Atiqah S.

My Almost Dawn Ramblings

2010-07-22T12:22:00.000-07:00

WARNING: THIS POST REPRESENTS MY VERY OWN OPINION. SO DON'T SAY ANYTHING IF YOU DON'T AGREE WITH ME. JUST STFU. PUT YOUR OWN OPINION ON YOUR OWN BLOG OR JOURNAL OR WHATEVER. OK? =)

1st Rambling.
So, I just realized that I am actually not artistic. AT ALL! I'm serious! I thought I could design but in reality I can't at all. I thought I could draw but in reality even toddlers could doodle better than me. I thought I could write but in reality I'm always outta idea half way and I can't construct awesome storyline.

When I was doing my diploma, I was in a very comfortable zone. I never looked at the other 44 classmates of mine as rivals. Only in minor circumstances that some of them would shook my confidence and made me wanna try harder.

Now, doing Advertising with a class consist of only 12 people excluding me, I realize that I am just a nobody standing next to them. 4 guys and 8 other girls came from different places with different background, I am total a girl who has been living in my own small world.

Gosh, being around them make me feel so small. Most of them are good English, several are REALLY good in photography and graphics while the others are very open, friendly and have lotsa connection.

I feel so much like a loser. They are actually one of the reason why I wanna go back to printing, to my comfort zone. But I know, this big change is a good stepping stone for me to be better for my future.

2nd Rambling.
Yes this is gonna make you go, "Yah, STFU. What a poser!" Well, after the 1st Hallyu that happened in Malaysia during the Autumn in my Heart days, this is the 2nd and largest Hallyu, Malaysia ever experienced. Even the Koreans are coming here to promote their country.

I tell you, I am one of the KPOP fans. You wanna say that I'm lame? Go ahead. Do I care if you say you like Search? Spin? Spoon? Exist? Hujan? Linkin Park? Miley Cyrus? No. You have your own genre and I have my own. Let me confess, I am not loyal when it comes to entertainment. But I am choosy. I don't just what the Malay says, "TANGKAP MUAT."

I only have two KPOP biases so far and they are BIGBANG and SHINee. I totally am crazy over them now, SO WHAT?! Why is it wrong that I like these two bands that you wanna put the down? Bash their music, their language?

Back then when I like Linkin Park, the so-called-Rock fans, dissed them by saying that they're not a rock band and stuff. Then when I started liking Good Charlotte, people start labelling me as EMO. WTH?! I listen to what I wanna listen and if you can't stand it, PLUG YOUR EARS THEN!

3rd Rambling
I'm so broke right now, I don't know what to do. I'm doing part time job after school and it's not paying much but I hope it'll help me more or less. My pay would be late. Well, what do you expect? I'm only a part timer, I work 3hours a day.

I have a mission though, I wanna try to live up the window display at my shop. But I need some help and budget from the company. IF YOUR WINDOW DISPLAY IS LOUSY, HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO GET CUSTOMER? ANSWER ME. DON'T YOU EVER LEARN WINDOW MERCHANDISING?

Then my customers, I am not a friendly person and for me to greet you when you step in my shop has got me to muster all courage and guts, you know. So, if I'm good enough to go and approach you and I try to help you find whatever you're looking for, don't be a bitch by saying you're just looking around and then spend hours rummaging through the stacks before you left the store with the thisshopdoesnthavewhatiwant look. Damn you! Don't be too arrogant.

That's the 1st type, the 2nd type all the girls. Don't come in and go straight to the Korean section to spaz over your favourite idols then left without buying them. You're wasting my time watching over you just to ensure you didn't steal anything. The last type is the parentswhodon'thaveteintentiontobuy type. If you have no intention to buy, don't even come in with your ducklings running around the store, make a mess at the cartoon section, having them screaming for you to buy it for them. Gosh! THINK PLEASE!

I love job!

Ok, i'm tired. Bye now.

A worth it 2hrs

2010-07-21T10:11:00.000-07:00

I downloaded this one movie like last week but haven't got the time to watch it. Finally, I have my off day today and since there's no new vids from my idols, I decided to watch this movie with my sister.

To all music lovers, THIS IS A MOVIE TO WATCH! It's 2 hours but IT'S SO DAMN WORTH IT!

I'm not gonna elaborate here, I'm not really in the mood to write right now, so I just put up the trailer here and hope that this trailer will move your heart to try and watch it. LET'S ROCK N ROLL WITH THE BOAT THAT ROCKED, PIRATE RADIO!

The BOAT that ROCKED "Official Trailer" in HD

Some funny clips from this A-MAZING movie!

I'm sorry but I'm an Idiot.

2010-07-15T06:28:00.000-07:00

Seriously, how stupid can I be? This is my 2nd week in school and it seems like things aren't going my way now. When I got my degree offer letter, I was offered Printing Technology but back then my heart refused to accept it. Like totally refuse it. So, I tried my luck by sending an email to the Dean of Mass Communication and voila! I got my wish.

Only thing was I wasn't excited when he granted my wish. What an IDIOT?! I was in the biggest dilemma ever about refusing that and changing back to printing because while waiting for a reply from the Dean, I've made up my mind that I'm gonna stick to printing but hey! situation decides for me. Well then, fine. I'll give it a try.

After one week and 2 days, I've set my heart and made up my mind to switch back to printing. Only thing was, the TNCA of UiTM has signed out a STRICT ORDER where the HEA shall not take in and process anymore transfer letter for program or faculty application. Well, I could take this easily but not my friend, Kak Yong. She had a hard time with this and she cried when the staff at the HEA department told us that there's nothing she could do. She could take the letter to satisfy us, but she won't process it at all. An order is an order.

All the hard work. Oh I tell you, we walked all the way today. The result was disappointing but it's a lesson to learn, an experienced to face. A new adventure all the way. I've learned my lesson. Because I'm afraid to make my own decision, I always wait till the last minute. Asking people around for opinion when actually I was trying to make them decide for me. In the end, I didn't decide, the people around me didn't decide either but the SITUATION decides for me.

If the situation has made a decision, there is no way out of it. So now, all I can do is face this new challenge. Hey! I wanna be adventurous right? This is my time. Like what Munch and I always say to each other, "GREAT MIND, STRONG KNEES."

Hey Munch, guess what? That totally works! I totally have a pair of strong knees. I can totally walk a mile now. Hahaha. I'm not kidding. Let me map out to you how far I walked today in order to satisfy myself and to proof to myself that miracle exist(?).

Let me explain briefly so that you will understand this map.
The red and yellow lines indicated me walking from one place to one place.
The blue line shows that I took the bus to get to the other point.

1st I walked from sek 2 to A&D and then I walked to Seroja.
From Seroja, I took the bus to Mass Comm.
Then from there I walked to Pusat Inovasi.
After that I took the bus back to Seroja where I have to walk from there to Chancellery.
Lastly, I walked back to my house in Sek2 from Chancellery.

Hahahaha!!!
I think I lost some kgs then.

Ciao Bella~
'Atiqah S.

My High School Dream Job

2010-07-05T16:44:00.000-07:00

Hahahaha!!!
I don't know really,
If I'm able to commit or not,
but I will try my best.

Finally,
I'm living a dream.
Hahahaha...
My high school dream job is?
To work at a CD store!
I'm not bluffing!
I'm serious to the max!

I've started yesterday.
After I showed my class schedule,
My supervisor Voha San,
said that I could come in at 6 every Mon - Thur.
Fri till Sun I might be working full time.

You wanna know why I it's my high school dream job?
Because of this amazing show.
That 80's Show
Yeah!
I love the punk girl!
And I love that record store!

Waaah~~~
The thing is now,
Will I be able to commit to both?
Work is nothing much,
School is.
With 7 final papers and assignments to come.
Ah! God! Bless me please.
I have to be strong!
I have to do this!

Dah2.
Ciao Bella~~~
'Atiqah S.

sekolah dah

2010-07-05T16:38:00.000-07:00

the other day i was in a total mess with a huge dilemma. printing, mass comm, printing mass comm, printing mass comm in the end, the situation chose mass comm. i'm serious, THE SITUATION solved this dilemma of mine.

because i can't turn it back now. i've got printing but i emailed the dean about the procedure to change to mass comm and less than 4 days, hey! i've got the offer. but i didn't want it as much as i thought i would. what lah~~~ screwed up big time.

but since school have started, yesterday was the 1st day. i wouldn't be able to say hi to some girls if it weren't for my all time uitm buddy/classmate/housemate kodok. hahaha...yeah, if i stick to mass comm, it seems like i'll be her classmate for another 3 years. best kan? setia aku dgn kodok.

hahaha...dah lah, just make the best of this now. degree is not the same as diploma and worst, i've no idea of the heads and tails of mass comm so there's a lot of catching up to do. ok lah, nk siap pegi claz...

till then,
ciao bella~~~
'Atiqah S.

Here and Back Again

2010-06-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

WARNING: THIS WILL BE A LONG STORY IN ENGLISH. DON'T READ IT IF YOU HATE ENGLISH. SMILEY FACE.

Like my friends, I'm done with diploma. I am currently resting and I'm resting well. I can't really say that I have an enjoyable holiday but yeah, it works for me. I am not much of an outgoing person myself, so as long as the internet line beeps, I'm alive!

19th June was the day that my friends and I anticipated for this whole summer holiday other than the other dreadful date where we were dead nervous about our final semester results. This time it was about our future, THE DEGREE APPLICATION RESULT. Yes, this is the highlight of this holiday. I didn't know about this or better to say that I've forgotten about it what's with the family problem and other personal problems, I totally didn't know anything about it.

Until on that date, I was at home (Muar) disturbing my brother when my cell rang. It was Aidil and the first thing he asked me was, "Dah check?". If you can imagine me having question marks on top of my head, please do so. I asked him back, "Check apa?" and explained to me about the degree thing. I asked him what did he get, he said he got degree in printing. Then he told me to go check it but I told him I can't. Computer's being used so, he gladly asked for my IC and I gladly gave it to him. What he said was heartbreaking, cold and the truth, "You xdpt." I lost words to speak, I held my breath, I froze on my bed and my mind went blank. Sounds like a nice fiction but that's the truth.

I really couldn't accept the truth. It's absurd because I did so well (to my extend) but I didn't get in? Even Printing? I really didn't know what to think plus, how am I suppose to drop the bomb to my dad? "Ayah, guess what? I didn't get in for degree. Yay me!!!" Yeah right, he'll flip! Being the famous 'Atiqah Sulaiman, I did what I do best, throwing a huge fit at whoelse? The famous Aidil my dear punching bag and shoulder to cry on. He did calm me down and he also told me for a fact that even the dean in my class didn't get in.

Wow! Imagine! The girl who scored didn't get in? Now, that's weird. So forget about freaking out, I contacted other friends and I found out that 18 people from my class didn't get in. Not only them, other UiTM students from other branches seemed to be having the same problem as me. The only person who knew about this was my sister and she said, "THAT'S ABSURD!" hahaha...

True enough. My friends and I tried to find solutions to get us out of this matter. Imagine high scorers have to write down a plead letter to get us in? Come on! I'm not being arrogant but that's the truth! Finally, I contacted Zarith on Sunday planning to attack UiTM on Monday. We did. After the lunch time, we went to the Unit Pengambilan Pelajar and dang! there were a huge crowd there. Mostly with the same problem like me. After a long wait, finally me and Zarith went in and asked the staff the same question hundreds of students might have asked him.

He nicely explained to us it was because of the stupidity of some UiTM students who went to apply degree through both system. The UiTM system and UPU. The system went nuts because of the clashed applications and this is how the commotion started. He said to wait for a week for this thing to settle. Lucky for me, I didn't have to wait for a week. I checked this evening and I got in. Not really the course that I've hoped for (partially my fault. Should've put Mass Comm as my 1st choice) but it's ok. Printing is still good. I told my dad and he like I'd imagined him to be, "What? Kenapa tak dapat mass comm?" Yeah well, sorry.

So, here and back again. I was here and I'm back again. New term but same old building, same old faces and same old story. However, I will change the situation. it won't be the same again. I promise you 'Atiqah Sulaiman, Kei will change the situation around.

Ciao Bella~~~
'Atiqah S.

tau x?

2010-05-21T10:44:00.000-07:00

tau x?

i claimed myself, the strongest(emotionally) person ever lived.

but lately,

lately,

i am not like dat anymore.

tau x?

everynite, i felt like crying.

hahahaha...

and i dnt knw hw...

so i watched sad stories, touching stories,

and witout me knowing,

im crying.

tp xpuas.

tau x?

i feel used.

STOP IT!

don't do dis to me.

u igt u sape?

gune org sesuka hati.

tau x?

friendship does not happen in times of troubles.

ur fren bkn utk mase ssh je.

tau x?

ada bnyk benda terbuku dlm hati 'Atiqah Sulaiman.

bnyk yg dia nk luahkan tp xboleh.

tau x?

sekarang ni,

i feel like punching someone's face.

punch that face sampi xrupa manusia.

tau x?

i am trying to smile to everything.

i'm trying to suck it all in.

tau x?

u r nt everythg.

ure nt dat good.

and u knw hw much ive done for u for u to achieve it all.

tau x?

jgn smpi 'Atiqah S. ungkit benda2 lame.

die xsuka sbb nnt org label die TAK IKHLAS.

klu btol die xikhlas, satu je die nk ckp,

"mcm mane nk ikhlas klu lepas i dh tlg org tu, dgn xckp terima kasih, buang je i mcm tu?"

tau x?

'Atiqah S. paling xske org tuduh die.

tuduh die bwat benda yg die xbwat.

tuduh die ada perasaan yg die xpernah terdetik pun dlm hati.

I JUST HATE IT!!!

tau x?

i just wanna curled up into a ball under my bed,

and cry myself to sleep?

tau x?

korg tu selalu dlm fikiran 'Atiqah S?

every second, witout fail.

sbb korg tu 'Atiqah S. punya INVICIBLE FRIENDS.

jgn ckp die gila, she's just lonely.

tau x?

klu boleh,

i xnak kenal sape2.

i xnak ckp dgn sape2.

i xnak buat baik kat sape2.

i xnak terhutang budi dgn sape2.

i don't want any of this.

tau x?

I JUST WANNA BACK OFF!

myra babysitting me again

2010-05-17T01:12:00.000-07:00

skang ni tgh lepak kat bengkel dak fashion.
i just arrived here from Muar actually.

smpi je umah, lepak jap pastu ikot myra gi sini.
kelam kabut myra.
arini assessment tp bju bnyk lg blum siap.
too bad idk hw to sew.
if nt dh bleh tlg jahitkan.
the only thing i could do and currently good at is do her power point.

very very simple.
oh shoot me already.

tgk diorg(myra & bdk2 fashion) kelam kabut mcm ni hahaha...
reminds me of Project Runway plak.

you know,
if i were to be given a chance to create 5 garments like them,
my theme would be fairytale with the concept of romeo & juliette.
hahahahaha!!!
ambitious much?

but if i do have the ability to, i would.
i definitely would.
i have so~~~ much idea in my head right now.
my creative juices suddenly sparks.

currently i am still jobless.
oh...
xtau la.
maybe i am seriously am not ready to work.
however, in this case.
i really really have to work.

I PROMISE I WILL STILL SEEK FOR A PART TIME JOB ASAP!

anyways,
i hope everything will be fine for Kim.
i hope i'll get a job soon.
i hope Munch will be haveing the time of her life working
and i really hope that i could go back to square 1.

ciao bella~~~
'Atiqah S.

banyak nak citer ni...

2010-05-08T04:02:00.000-07:00

yes...

banyak nak citer sebenarnye...

but!

i don't tink im in the mood for it...

i need to get pictures,

search my brain memories for past events,

and then put dem in words,

match dem wit d pictures

pastu?

publish.

maleh eden...

just so u know,

DAH ABEZ DIPLOMA!!!

WOOOOHOOOO!!!

insyaallah,

keputusan bagus.

if not dean at least better than last sem.

i worked my ass off man.

give me some credit please.

skang ni bru 1 week? 2 weeks? cuti diploma ni...

rite now nak lepak dulu.

mmg plan nk keje tp kim minx tlg bwat slide utk die...

dh settle slide die,

nxt week klu ayh balik,

i nak ikot balik!!!

jumpa ibu!!!

speaking of ibu,

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

to my dearest IBU and all the mamas in the world!!!

dh balik jumpa ibu bru balik sini cri keje...

xkesah la keje apa pun...

yg penting i need a firggin new phone

and a driving license.

ssh la nk gerak xde lesen, xde keta ni.

klu dh ada lesen kene minx keta sebijik dgn ayah ni...

MY JEEP MY JEEP!!!

hahahaha...

assessment dgn diploma show aritu mmg asyik!!!

nnt dh dpt gmbr from joe bru publish ok.

dh la..

mls nk merapu lg...

Ciao Bella~~~

'Atiqah S.

money spent, knowledge gained!

2010-04-27T09:28:00.000-07:00

AKHIRNYA!!!

DAKU BEBAS!!!

I AM FREE!!!
AS FREE AS A BIRD!!!

WISH I COULD REALLY REALLY FLY!!!

Rase sgt sgt sgt happy xterkata mcm in heaven. Comel ek aizat tiup bubble...

Wow~~~

After 3 years!!!
3 tahun!!!
Dari Muar berhijrah ke Shah Alam.
Akhirnya, I'm gonna get my diploma soon.

Hahahaha!!!
Tadi the last one,
the finale untuk segala2nya.

Major Project Final Assessment!!!

Mmg hari kemuncak...
Hari yg ditunggu2 since the beginning of the sem.

Perasaan xtau lah...
Semua rasa.
Cuak, happy, sedih, anxious, excited, glory, triumph, regret, kecewa...
Mcm2...
Like what Ryan Cabrera once said, "40 kinds of sadness."
Ni, aku rasa bazillion kinds of emotions in 1 bit rate of my heart.

Before masuk, time 1st student kene assess,
I cried.
1 sbb cuak dengan panel assessor yg senior ramai kata KILLER ASSESSORS.
2 sbb my dad sent me a txt dat really shook my heart.
The txt was:-

The day semua anak2 ayah lahir lagi, ayah doa semoga anak2 ayah diberkati Allah dn berjaya dlm apa jua dunia dn akhirat...So if u'r suppose 2 do what u'r suppose 2 do, then u'll do ok, n i know u'r 1 smart daughter...Jz fly girl n do ur magic!

Yes! Those were his exact words!!!
Reading it again, made me feel like crying once more.

Wished my mum txtd me...
Tp I know my mum...
Her children are always in her prayers.

Hahahahaha~~~
nak nanges weyh type ni!!!
bergenang dah air mata...

Anyways, nak tunjuk skit perubahan dari 1st masuk UiTM smpi la skang ni.
From left (above): Rambut ku keteng 1st sem, Eyh? Lurus plak ni...ahhahaa 2nd sem and masih lagi lurus, second time rebonding 3rd sem.
From left (below): Rambut dh pjg and my original curl pun dh kuar, rmbut hodoh 4th sem, Waaaah!!! dah start pkai 2dung 5th sem and last but not least, ada nmpk mcm dh matured x? 6th sem.

Dalam mase 3 tahun ni,
I've made about 45 friends and several others from other departments.
Mmg masyuuuuuuuuk...
Hahahaha...

I've made true and real friends here.
I thought after Michelle Lee,
Ssh nak bwat kawan...
Tp, I guess I have my own charm...
I je xsedar.

I even found love here.
*blush*

Xtau la, lepas ni apa akan jadi...
Tp bwat mase skang...
Nak rase nikmat XDE BWAT APA2 NI!!!
kahkahkahkahkah!!!

Last but not least:-
Gua mmg akan rindu muka2 ni!!!
waaaaaaaaaaa~~~
T^T

Till now...
Ciao Bella~~~
'Atiqah S.

Breakfast at Tiffany's? Yeke?

2010-04-12T07:50:00.000-07:00

Hahahahahaha...

Tiffany's la sangat...

Breakfast kat McD je.

Td pagi around 6 something xde electricity.

Xtau la the whole Shah Alam ke or Sek2 je,

tp mmg gelap la.

Tdo around 4 something,

Pastu tgh syiok tdo tu tba2 dlm hati,

"Aih, kipas smpi dua xkan berpeluh lg kot."

Hahahahaha...

Rupa2nya xde electric.

Kim lg best,

Ada ke she said,

"I igt, Kei ni nape tutup kipas? Die sejuk ke?"

And then tgk lampu tdo, gelap je.

Tgk tingkap, kat luar pun gelap je.

Oh, bru la die tahu xde electric.

Aboo txt die kul 6 tp 6:30 bru sedar xde electric.

Hebat gak bleh thn stgh jam.

Padahal mmg panas gila la kan.

Pastu dua2 pun bangun la...

Buka tingkap, tgk luar.

Waaah~~~ lawa sgt bulan.

Dah tgk keadaan gelap, sunyi sepi...

Start la Kim&Kei ni merepek.

Hahahaha.

I said to Kim,

"Girl, mcm I Am Legend plak."

She laughed.

I laughed.

"Jap lg ada zombie kuar."

"Ish, jgn la Kei. Takot la."

Ye...ktorg mmg ske merepek.

Tp, feel I Am Legend tu mmg ada la.

Dah penat merepek,

Ktorg baring blik kat katil.

Tba2 Aboo dtg, ajak Kim jln.

Kim pun asked me to tag along skali.

Contemplating,

Nak ikot or duk dlm panas?

Baik ikot.

Me n Kim tukar suar,

Pkai sweater, pastu naik keta.

Lalu McD, gelap je.

Tba2 terasa mcm nak breakfast plak.

Dh lame xmkn pancake.

So, pegi la McD Sek. 9,

Peliklah, McD tu panas.

Dah tu, xde plak pancakes.

Xkesahlah, mkn je McMuffin.

Si Kim,

Bantai ambik Heinz jam sampai 12 packets.

Hahahahahaha!

Best.

Dah lame xlepak dgn Kim dgn Aboo.

Borak2 dgn diorg.

Tp xcukup korum td.

Xde Agon.

Die kene la Kim&Aboo, Kei&Agon.

Hahahaha!!!

If xde electric ni xjd,

Maybe,

Ktorg xkan dpt lepak smpi abez final kot.

Hahahaha...

Anyways, thanx Kim n Aboo.

You guys made my day.

And!

I had a good bladder marathon too.

Berapa kali pegi toilet arini.

Hahahaha.

I told my dad,

My stomach is sick.

Die tanya mkn apa je arini?

Cterlah, what I had.

He's conclusion?

"You xleh mkn solid food ni."

Hahahahaha!!!

My sister terkejut.

Seriously ayah?

You can't expect me to eat baby's food?

Hahahaha!!!

Husky? Heinz?

Dah la...

Nak study actually.

Dah bace skit...

Tp boring la...

Ciao Bella~

'Atiqah S.

NEW CRAVINGS!!!

2010-04-11T05:57:00.000-07:00

ARRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!

MUST HAVE!!!
A MUST HAVE!!!

Sorry...
But I am so~~~ damn craving for these items.
I just need to work out the money 1st.

Item #1
Been craving for these since last year and right after I lost my darling Sony E.

LG Lollipop
Not just because BIGBANG & 2NE1 are the endorser but what can I do? I'm a big clamshell freak!

Item #2
I am so~~~ a sneaker girl. I rock em better than heels.

Pastry Shoes
Anything from Pastry pretty please~~~
But I am so~~~ eye-ing this

Glam Pie-Hi Mixed Berry

Such a cutie~~~
I love to dance, so I need my dancing shoes!!!

Item #3
I am right now into colorful outfits and long sleeve shirts.
Well, coz now I'm not a free hair girl anymore.
I searched and I am so~~~ in love with

pa:nuu
In particular, I would loooove to get my poor hands on these two items:

pa:nuu Bolette Hood
Nice ain't it? Aaah~~~ so colourful (^.^)

pa:nuu shirt from the S/S 09 Collection
Ok, Taemin is a good model. I really want it coz he looked so~~~ dope in it.
But the fact that pa:nuu has various shirts like this, I am so in love <3
*twirls*

Sighs~~~
I shall work my butt off this coming holiday.
I will figure out billions kind of ways to get my hands on all of 'em!!!

Please take note:
These item, I really want them.
So, if you know where to get 'em, inform me ASAP!
I know where to get the Lollipop tho, don't worry.
And please~~~
Don't buy them if you have the money,
unless I give you the green light, which I doubt.
ke ke ke.

Ciao Bella~
'Atiqah S.

I know what I want to be!!! Finally!!!

2010-04-10T01:11:00.000-07:00

Hahahaha...

Meeting my sister's friend the other day,

I finally found a job that I think suits me, incredibly!

Kekeke...

My sister's friend, Kak Ona asked me about my diploma.

So, I told her yada yada yada...

And then suddenly she said,

"Akak ada kawan hari tu die nak cari copywriter. Tqa boleh bwat kan keje2 copywrite ni?"

When she asked me that, I didn't know what it was.

But me being me, I like to pretend that I know stuff...

Kekeke...

So I just nodded.

Then she said,

"Nanti, klu nk bgtaulah, akak tanya kwn akak tu."

Waaaah!!!

So, when I got home, I googled "copywriter" and I got this:

Most copywriters are employees within organizations such as advertising agencies, public relations firms, web developers, company advertising departments, large stores, marketing firms, broadcasters and cable providers, newspapers, book publishers and magazines. Copywriters can also be independent contractors freelancing for a variety of clients, at the clients' offices or working from their own, or partners or employees in specialized copywriting agencies.

A copywriter usually works as part of a creative team. Agencies and advertising departments partner copywriters with art directors. The copywriter has ultimate responsibility for the advertisement's verbal or textual content, which often includes receiving the copy information from the client. (Where this formally extends into the role of account executive, the job may be described as "copy/contact.") The art director has ultimate responsibility for visual communication and, particularly in the case of print work, may oversee production. Either person may come up with the overall idea for the advertisement or commercial (typically referred to as the concept or "big idea"), and the process of collaboration often improves the work.

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Copywriting

Before this, I thought of being a proof reader or beta reader.

Hahaha...

But know something,

I HATE reading.

Fiction is fine, GOOD fiction...

But facts?!!!

Imagine if I have to proof read an encyclopedia?!!

Woah!!!

But, I think, if choose to be a proof reader...

After 3 years, ask me anything,

I might be able to answer most general knowledge questions.

Hahahaha!!!

I'm crappin again.

Well, anyways...

Either way, I hope I won't be jobless after graduation.

Please pray for me~~~

Ciao Bella~

'Atiqah S.

I teared up!!! Boohoo!!!

2010-04-07T08:08:00.000-07:00

I can't believe it!!!

I, 'Atiqah Sulaiman, the toughest girl in the Sulaiman household teared up over a reality show!!!

No! I'm not talking about those reality show like American Idol or Akademi Fantasia.

Eeeuw~~~

I'm talking about a Korean (currently into the Hallyu wave) reality show from KBS Joy called Hello Baby starring SHINee. A band I've known in less than 3 months and immediately became my favorite!

When I 1st watched Hello Baby it was like aaaawww~~~ they're so cute. Both the SHINee boys and the toddler name YooGeun. As I followed the show, I became attached to them because of how real their feelings were towards the toddler and among themselves.

Love, friendship, respect, maturity, craziness and care...EVERYTHING!

When I read from some fan sites saying that SHINee Hello Baby will end soon, I was dumbfounded. I didn't want it to end and I still can't accept the fact that it has ended just yesterday. The 1st season of Hello Baby starring SNSD ended with approx. 21 eps but it seems like SHINee has to end it early due to their leader ONEW having to participate in a musical, KEY with a new reality show called Raising Idol and their new album that's gonna be releasing soon.

They celebrated Jonghyun's bday with Yoogeun picking out the cake for him. The preparation they did was simple but it was so touching plus, Yoogeun did a special performance for Jonghyun. Hahahah!!! Super cute! They did a time capsule that contains all the things that brought so many memories within the 3 months of living together.

Things like the bubble gun Taemin got to get Yooegun cutting his hair, the picture cards that they taught Yoogeun to identify apple and watermelon, magnetic numbers that Onew taught Yoogeun to identify 5 and some pictures they took during the 3 months. Yoogeun can only open the time capsule when he turns 20 which made Onew wondered wether Yoogeun would still remember them (SHINee) when he turns 20 in the future. Y^Y

Wow!!! I laughed hard with every episode of this show and finally, this show managed to break my steel heart and I wept!

Hahahahahahaha!!!

I know I'm being stupid right now to weep over some shows but yeah, I really really am attached to this show and there's nothing to look forward to every week with this show closing its curtain yesterday 6th April (my hun's bday...hehehehe...Happy Birthday!!!)

Ok, I'm looking forward for Key's new reality and can't wait for both SHINee and BIGBANG's comeback this summer!!! Yay!!!

Ciao Bella~~~

'Atiqah S.

I wanna weep...really.

2010-04-06T04:24:00.000-07:00

i dnt really knw hw to explain dis feeling i have rite nw. but it is exactly like dat picture up der. gosh! never i felt dis way before in my entire life but rite nw, even after heaving a heavy sigh it still der, tightly clenching my heart.

damn it!

i am nt perfect, no one is! bt y do i have to even try so damn hard to even b one?!

i am ignorant, i told so many ppl abt it. but dat doesn't mean i'm ignorant all the times. i chose to be ignorant wen i want to. important occasions is something i won't be ignoring!

never isolate me! i hate to be isolated by ppl. i cn isolate myself bt nt others. i choose to get involve or not bt nt others. dats hw it works.

i knw, i mite sound selfish bt i trust me, i could never ever be one. i've tried so~~~ many times to b selfish, bt everytime i did ders dis ting chained behind me called GUILT.

Oh God! I really really wanna weep rite now. Please, just take dis heavy messed up feeling from my weak chest. I don't tink i cn tke it anymore.

i wanna shut down.

shut myself down.

picture credit to Sad Days Indeed by Asbjorn Lonvig

'Atiqah S.

Been Neglecting

2010-03-23T19:11:00.001-07:00

I've been neglecting my blogger lately.

Hahahahahaha!!!

If you noticed my twitter feed at the side,

I did update,

just not here.

I opened up a new account call tumblr.

So, I do my updates there....

Coz that place is pretty much easy to do updates.

Fun too...

Yeah...

Like that.

I will try to copy paste what I update there to here.

That still, if I am not lazy.

Hahahahahahaha!!!

This is my tumblr.

http://atiqahs.tumblr.com/

Ciao Bella~

'Atiqah S.

Random : Chopstick

2010-03-14T09:50:00.001-07:00

Hahahaha!

...

This is a very very random story.

Last week if I'm not mistaken.

Last week Thrusday, my dad, my brother, my sister and I went to have dinner at Pak Hailam.

Well, it's a kopitiam.

And like any other kopitiam the silverware set comes with chopstick.

I picked up a set of chopstick and started playing with it.

"Aku xreti nak guna chopstick ni." I said.

"Lahai, senang je. Yang atas ni gerak, yang bawah tu xyah." my brother started showing me how to use it.

Once I got a hang of it, I started picking up invisible things on the table with the chopstick.

Then I aim my sister's white fingers.

Suddenly, something REALLY random went to my head.

Then I grabbed my brother's finger with the chopstick and said,

"Mamat, overcooked."

My sister looked at me with the what-the-heck-are-you-talking-about look.

I felt a little bit of the "Onew Sangtae" going on.

Then I started to explain it to her by grabbing her finger again with the chopstick.

"Ko half cook."

...

"Mamat, overcooked."

...

"Aku, nicely done."

Then she burst out loud. Laughing and said, "pandainya ko."

Hahahaha!

Well, basically I was talking about our skin colors.

My sister is really fair,

I am tan skin,

while my brother is just dark.

Hehehe...

Anyways, I had a good meal.

The chicken rice was awesome!

La!

Ciao Bella~

'Atiqah S.

My Bestfriend of 10 years.

2010-02-02T07:06:00.000-08:00

Yes! 10 years since the 1st time we met.

Amazing how we've gotten in this relationship for this long.

Despite of all our differences including the genre of music that we like.

We managed.

I went to meet Munch (Michelle Vanessa Lee) just now.

At KJ LRT station.

Wow!

We met last year xmas eve rite?

N nw, she looks totally different.

HOTTER THAN USUAL.

GORGEOUS!

And taller (tall by nature + heels = dwarf me)

Hahaha.

Well, I went to take my bday present.

Thank you so much!

I totally love it!!!

The M&S Sweater came wit F.R choc and of course, my bday letter.

This is what it says:

Dearest Kei,

Happy 21st Birthday! Now I can hardly wait for myself to turn 21. Soon! Soon!

Anyways, congratulations on graduating soon! Go far whatever you want to do and work hard for what you want. Remember, that wishes and dreams do come true. =)

By the way, remember that being yourself is the best in anything else. I beg you please to not be someone else because you will never achieve satisfaction in whatever you do. You are who you are, unique the way you are and no one should change that.

People must like/accept you for who you are to be. The 'Kei' that I know and like. You are free to crap whatever you want. You don't have to shut up for anything you believe in either.

Love yourself for who you are because those who care don't matter and those who matter don't care.

I'm saying this because you have changed and somehow it's because of the circumstances around you. It seems, you are not too happy about it because you somehow supress who you truly are and how you truly feel.

But anyways, if I can do what I want, you can do it too. I won't laugh at anything sweety. Regardless of what you are getting yourself into, you have my blessings and support. And will keep you in prayers always. You are my one and only best friend and hope for it to keep going till death do us part.

Fingers crossed, I hope for your success to be great and all yours to satisfy. And though your irthday present was hard to find and not exactly the way you want it to be, Happy Birthday. God bless you and grant many more returns.

Work hard for what you want because you deserve it. =)

p/s: Save up we're going to Kuching, someday.

With lotsa love,

Vanessa.

She never fails to touch my heart. Heal it and give it new hope everytime.

Meeting her today, the last word she said was, "Why are you getting smaller?" Hahaha...

Maybe because your future is getting bigger and brighter while I'm still in the dark that it kinda shrunk me. Hahahaha!

I'm crappin again with broken english.

Munch, I love you! Forever and ever more!

We have many many many more years to go.

Let's make another 10 years and then add another 10 years and more more more ...

Endless!

Thank you so much!

I'll always remember your words and you are my backbone!

Aaaaahhh!!! I miss my Munchkin Lourve!

Till then,

Ciao Bella.

~'Atiqah S.

I AM OFFICIALLY 2NE1!!

2010-01-30T10:03:00.000-08:00

YES!
I was 12 once but now,
I am 21!!!

GOSH!
I FEEL SO OLD!

(even my mum couldn't believe it when I told her my age now)

This year,
I didn't celebrate my birthday with my family since
it's on schooling day.
So that means I'm in Shah Alam not Muar.

However,
I am glad, happy and thankful for everyone who remembered my birthday.

The Almighty Allah,
Thank You for giving me the chance to live for 21 years.
I hope to live until 100 but I respect the fate You've decided for me.
I am grateful to You and please help me be a better servant to You and Your religion.

My Family,
Ayah & Ibu for all the sacrifices you've done for your 2nd daughter.
I know I've been nothing but troublesome to you, I'm sorry.
I don't ask for expensive birthday presents,
all I want is for you both to be healthy and live to have a taste of my success.
Kak Ina & Mamat for bearing 21 years with me as your sister.
An annoying brat, a total mood swinger and quite a cool sis to my bro.
Aren't I? ^^v Thank you for filling up my boring days,
for understanding me and for being there whenever I need comfort.
I love all of you. XOXO

My Bestfriends,
Munch though we didn't manage to meet up today due to communication breakdown,
I thank you for always remember me in your heart, in your mind.
You've done so much for me that I felt like I am helpless towards you.
I'm sorry if I lack so much as your bestfriend.
Kim for treating Ayam Penyet. Though you said it's not much but,
it totally means a lot to me. For you to make time for me, taking me out
and celebrate my birthday, I couldn't ask for anything more.
You're my 1st UiTM friend and will always be the 1st.
Mr. Wonderwall, you, you BRAT! Thanks for the jacket!
I love it but I love you more (though I hate you right this moment).
I know within this 3 years we've been through a lot of hell but,
deep down inside we know what we have is true.
I just, thank you my darling.
I LOVE YOU 3!!!

For the others,
Thank you so much for all your wishes!
Please pray for my health and happiness.

I was once a little girl who sang 'Que Sera Sera' but now,
I am an adult trying to make it happen!

Ciao Bella.
~'Atiqah S.

Being Friendly

2010-01-20T06:36:00.001-08:00

Im laughing aren't I?

That was, last year.

The truth is, I'm never good with threesome.

Be it in whatever gender.

When there is a 3rd person between my relationship with the other person,

I'll start throwing tantrum.

Show my true colors.

Btw, the picture is only for display purpose.

The truth is (I'm repeating sentence),

I am NOT a FRIENDLY BEING.

I have this unlikeable face.

*Psst...If my hater read this, that fella would definitely drop me a message saying,

"Yeah woman, dats bloody hell rite. You're ugly!"

Hahahahaha!!!

Oh! You're awesome.

And I am definitely NOT a GOOD TALKER.

Even my boyfriend gets tired when we're out dating.

He did say once, "*sighing* Penat la I cakap. U senyap je."

Hahahahaha!!!

Sorry my dear.

Talk more I guess.

Be outspoken.

Be a bit more friendlier...

Smile always.

~aaaah...

Life's like this.

Ciao Bella.

'Atiqah S.

After Two Weeks

2010-01-13T23:03:00.000-08:00

Has it been two weeks since I'm here in Shah Alam?
I guess. So, I finally go to school with much difficulties.
Felt like i was fencing with my heart. To go or not to go?
Aish! I don't know why either. But I've been demoralized.

I'm back here and my friends have so much to share about their holidays.
Kim worked at AX during the hols and gained so~~~ much exp.
Fana, well Jusco blew up. Hahaha.
Others did something productive while all I did during the hols was upgrading my dancing skill.

Out of all the dance I tried to learn, I only managed to memorize all the steps for Kara's Mister song. Hahaha...I had fun doing the butt dance.
Now that I'm back in Shah Alam, I've sorta developed new personality or is this finally me being ME?
Hahahaha...but the main thing is I don't really beep my thoughts anymore.
If I feel like saying it, I'll say it. Jokingly or seriously.

I'll be graduating this June and Kim already decided to go back and work in AX. Me? I really really have to go out and look for a job. If not, Munch and Kim will laugh hard at me. OMO!!! I'm such a failure.
Munch, will be doing her air hostess thingy soon. She'll be flying not long now. Though domestic, she'll still make thousand than me. BoooHoooHooo me!!!

Munch, bring me something good yeah? and Kim, if you get free stuff, get me one AX jeans ke? Hahahahah...

OK...I've got nothing much to say. Oh Yeah! My birthday's just around the corner. Hopefully it'll turn out good. I wanna cam-whoring on that day. And I am so ready to be floured and egged by all of you. Hahahaha.

21 is the number baby.

Ciao Bella.
~'Atiqah S.~

G-Dragon visit me in my dream again?!

2010-01-02T20:03:00.000-08:00

Today, just now.
I had a super duper awesome sleep.
I don't know why, but I was super duper sleepy.

So, I slept from 12-4p.m
However, the highlight of my sleep was from around 3something to 4, I think.

I was like a camera, I monitor this guy.
He was a very very cute skinny looking guy.
He just finished photoshoot then in his hoodie and beanie and
expensive jeans with a huge bag,
he walked into this pay attention, I don't know why
but quite a beaten down car.

Funny.
Why not in a luxurious car?

Doesn't matter.
Once he got in the car, he sat behind...
He fell asleep immediately.

And then suddenly the car stops in a deserted highway.
There's a bike and there's a girl there and I was no longer a monitor but a third person.
So, him, me and a girl.

Now the best part about this dream was not only the fact that I was with G-Dragon but the place I was in.
OH MY GOD!
It was like heaven on earth!!!

We walked into a field of various plants. High growing plants.
High growing flowers.
Wow!!!
I was so~~~ amazed.

The three of us played there like nobody's business.
We seriously were laughing and all.
Suddenly, GD asked me to follow him somewhere.
I told him, we can't just leave her here.
But he said, come on.
It's ok.

He held my hand and I started to follow him,
the feeling was indescribeable...

We were about to reach that place when my phone rang!
ARGH! FUCK IT!!!!

Call me for house rent!!!
Shit man!!!
I was in the middle of a super duper extremely heavenly dream here you bugged me for rent!!!
Aish!

From serene my mood changed to doctor evil!

I want need crave hoodie!!!

2009-12-30T06:35:00.000-08:00

Living in Malaysia does not really require you to have tons of hoodies,
but at least you need to have 1.

I have at least 4, but the one that I wear occasionally is ruined.
The other 3, hmmm...one is too big, one is small and the other is well I don't really have
quite the reason to wear it around.

So, I need a decent and a practical one for me to wear it around during the cold nights or
the rainy days. Now, since I'm wearing tudung I am have to be a little
choosy on the clothes I'm wearing. I need to be all covered up and stuff.
For hoodies, I need to be a zip-up hoodie. Easier for me to wear it.

However, there are several hoodies that I make an exception about the zips.
Hehehe...

09FW Colonize MJ Hood-002 (black)
from Colonize Company
The price is USD154.00
and convert to RM it wud be
MYR528.00

This is a product from Korea. So I'm guessing if I buy it from Korea it wud be cheaper.

I love it!!!

G-Dragon G hoodie
from YGeShop

GD wore this hoodie during his A Boy performance in Inkagayo.

The price after converting from Won to RM is MYR200+

NII HEART HOODIE (NNUALLS3181)
from NII Collection

NII Heart Collection is the collection that I adore so much.

They came up with the tag line:
NII Heart: Love&Dream

Nice eyh?

The price is MYR226
I want it!!!

Now, I think we've been side tracked for awhile there.
I really want those, so I make an exception for them not being a zip-up type hoodie.
Now, on to the zip-up hoodie, which is more suitable for me (,_,)

Check LOGO-001(Red) by Colonize

Price after converting is MYR580

A bomb-like cost but seriously I want this.
It's reversible so that means i have like 2 hoodies in 1.
Cool huh?

Oh! I want this.

So, those are the hoodies that caught my eyes.
I really like all of em.
Especially the MJ hoodie and this Colonize hoodie.

If I could find something similar&cheap or the exact one but cheaper;
I'll buy it straight away.

Awesome! Awesome!

If you are interested in these items and many more please check out
http://www.vip-club.co.kr

And shop till you drop!

~xoxo~

Haters and Lovers

2009-12-29T19:05:00.000-08:00

This is a post responding to the shoutbox msg I received ystrdy nite. Yeah look over there ====>>

I need critics but I hate it when I got it. However, that's the only way for me to learn and be better and better each time. Last semester I was criticized twice, badly by my lecturer and I was demoralized badly too. I didn't wanna finish my designs, I wanted to quit and I cried myself to sleep several times.

Hence, I picked up myself and I went for it. I got A for this subject (Grateful). During the holidays, I have so much time to spend that I've gotten a new idea for my last semesters assignment. It's the same thing just it'll be harder. So, instead of continuing with the rock magazine I thought of changing the path and do fashion magazine instead.

Wow, with the help of my Skype friends (Jyen, Nurule, D and Mink); I managed to finished the front cover and the center spread for this magazine I call B2BNE1 (credit to Jyen). It took me a couple days to finally completed the center spread and I loved the outcome of it. And so, like everyone else who likes to show off their masterpieces (I'm saying mine is) I posted it up.

Hahahahaha...my Skype friends love it (I hope they are telling the truth), LisyaVIP likes it too (I hope it i snot because of G-Dragon)...My other friends they haven't seen it I guess. Well, my blog is not that famous anyway. Not many ppl walk in and check it out.

BUT! Surprisingly ystrdy nite b4 I off to bed, I checked my blog again and I saw ders two msgs for me at the shoutbox. Wow! Wasn't I taken aback by the harsh comments. Hahahaha!!! The 1st one he/she said that my design irritates him/her and the 2nd one he/she said that G-Dragon looks retarded.

Hahahahahahaha!!! Are you jealous or something that GD is well, good looking? Biliv me, I am jealous of him too. At some point, he looks 10x better as a girl than I am. Anyway, this person didn't leave any link for me to contact him/her. I don't know anything about dis person and I would love to get to know him/her.

U know, I want him/her to show me something that he/she designed and does not look irritating or bad and I wanna know how NOT RETARDED that person is.

I just realized that I've never blogwalking to other ppl's blog and leave harsh msgs without introdusing mysekf better yet, I've never commented harshly to anyone, ever! But I've been receiving hate comments for awhile now. As much as it bugs me, I feel kinda facsinated. Kinda fun to know that the reality is so cold and hard to accept.

NOT ANYONE WILL LOVE YOU AND NOT ANYONE WILL HATE YOU.
LOVERS AND HATERS DO EXIST IN THIS WORLD.
BE AWARE!

To that person: I take your critic with an open heart, thank you very much for being truthful. It must have taken all your guts to say that to me and I appreciate it. You have to agree with me that though my design irritates you, it attracted you to come and look at it at some point right? Hahaha...you know, show yourself and lets be friends. I won't bite. Thank you again, very very much. I really appreciate it. You know, I'll be graduating next year June and I think I could use you observation to help me improve and graduate with awesome marks. Please, let me know who you are. Till then, thank you and live a happy life.

I say what I wanna say. Please be reminded that I hate to judge ppl and I hate ppl to judge me or other ppl arnd me. You are not perfect, we are not perfect and I am 100% not perfect. Yes I am, a being full of S.I.N.

Peace.

Ciao Bella~
'Atiqah S.

G-Dragon featured in B2BNE1 magazine?!

2009-12-28T21:52:00.000-08:00

Hahahaha!!!
Gotcha!
You just can't think straight as soon as you saw G-DRAGON, can you?

Well, anyways...
He did feature in B2BNE1 magazine but,
this magazine does not exist.

This magazine will only exist IF and only IF my lecturer approve my layouts for it.
Even if it existed, it is not for sale. Coz I'll be making only 8 pages for a 48pages magazine with 40 blank pages. Who wanna buy it rite?

I spent 4 nights only on the center spread.
The cover I did it in one day.
All the hard work I put in design for this fashion magazine,
I still think that my lecturer won't approve it.

Because! The images must be 300 pixel.
Which when you zoom until 300%, the images still clear and just HD HD HD!
I shall play with words when I persuade him later.
Hahahah!!! Him as in my lecturer.

I'm only posting up the center spread picture but not the magazine cover.
It'll be too much then.

B2BNE1 stands for Be To Be Any One.
Credit to Miss Jyen Wan.

click to enlarge

What do you think?

I hope I could go on with this design.
Coz I totally had fun doing it...
Of course rite?
I gotta stare at G-Dragon for hours!

That's all for now.

~xoxo~

Potato Pancake 091226

2009-12-26T11:03:00.000-08:00

After watching Family Outing episode 35 featuring TOP,

My sister and I really wanted to make the potato pancake that Lee Hyori made in that show.

After months and it's almost the end of the year,
We finally made it!!!
More like, I drained the so-called-grinded potato and my sister complete it all.
This is not THE potato pancake that we make. But, this is how it looked like.

DELICIOUS.
Even my mom liked it.

Next recipe to make, also we got it from the variety show F.O is *drum roll*
RICE BALLS!!!

Ok, the one that I wanted to make it's not like this. But the whole idea is Rice Balls.

Hahaha...
Simple, easy and DELICIOUS!!!

I guess...looks tempting.
Oh! I have another mission next year.
Kimora, please help me make this one happen.
JJANGJJANGMYUN.

Also known as black bean paste noodle.

Been craving for this one.
I wanna learn how to make BIBIMBAP too.

This good if xtay nak m

Aaaaah~~~
All these food...
Makes me hungry and I'm getting fatter.

School begins in one week...
but I SERIOUSLY don't care about it.
In fact, I'm fact...I'm planning to cut the whole 1st week of school.

Hmmm...
But I need to start getting serious.

This is hard.
I'm finishing soon but my future is seriously DARK!!!

BLACK HOLE!!!
BLACK HOLE!!!

Grow up.

Ciao Bella~~~

Un plan de mariage de Madame la Zarith

2009-12-01T00:14:00.000-08:00

TAGGED #1

1) Write five (5) interesting facts about the person who gave you this award.

pertame : mcm mek kelantan/tganu yg lain - LAWA

kedue : kuat gila tdo

ketige : suka suruh umai buat itu ini...kekeke

keempat : kurus kering mcm skeleton

kelima : mek xde gigi satu...^^v

2) Jot down ten (10) interesting facts about yourself or your hobbies.

1) i love DREAMS. everynite b4 I sleep, I'll ask for a dream. hahaha!

2) i read boyxboy fics, mangas n animes...even OVA

3) i called myself a writer...kekeke

4) my one and only skill -ENGLISH

5) i have massive migraine now and then

6) not really allergic to meat but i dislike meat...so it'll be easier to say i am allergic to them...(bila terasa je mkn)

7) i hate hypocrites but im a hypocrite myself...hmmm~~~i have my own drunken reasoning

8) i have a super duper soft heart...i could hardly say NO to people...so, don't take advantage of me.

9) i don't have a driver's licence yet...so~~~wanting one but im afraid to go behind the wheel n step on the pedal...

10) im a sweeth tooth...chocolates, cakes, pastries...yummy...and i love bread!!!

3) Pick your ten (10) most deserving recipients and describe them.

1.khairul anwar - super dedicated The Rightturners moderator

2.nabil fikri - a boy with a on off relationship...hahaha

3.michelle lee - soon to be air hostess...a perfect housewife! (highly recommended)

4.ARC - he's in my follower list

5.mohd loqman - my chilay junior...mane kenny?

6.faiz abu bakar - some1 who always change his blog skins...

7.mohd al-amin - a 21year boy who is smaller than me! abu itam! kekeke

8.budak nakal - the guy who taught me about shoutbox

9.norzahidah - jo yg ari2 mkn kfc n mcd

10.faten amira - a girl who i happened to know like BIGBANG too.

TAGGED #2

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan!=) At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about u!=)

1. how old are you?
20 years old

2. are you single?
i dont know...tings r hard rite now

3. at what age do you think you'll get married?
hmmm...i have so much to do...30 maybe...

4. do you think you'll marry the person you are with now?
I could only wish.

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
hahaha...G-Dragon? Kim Jae Wook? hahahaha!!! that person Allah created for me.

6. who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
im not sure bestman but my bridesmaid is of MICHELLE VANESSA LEE. Would you Munch?

7. do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
a fusion of beach n traditional...hmmm...mcm mane tuh?

8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
some place cold...so we could always cuddle up...n maybe, buy a super huge winter coat n share it together...walking down street n eat ice cream...hahaha!!! i am crazy...lg sejuk lg i want ice cream.

9. how many guests do you think you'll invite?
less than 500...i like small n modest...family n close friends only.

10. will that include your exes?
i dont know wer my exes are...hahaha!!!

11. how many layers of cake do you want?
i dont want cake...i want a CROQUE-EN-BOUCHE.

12. when do you want to get married, morning or evening?
since i want a beach wedding, evening would be nice...we could watch the sunset together.

13. name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
hmmm...i never tot about dis...oh! ders one, Good Charlotte - Where Would We Be Now...if i marry him, of course, Oasis - Wonderwall. But, I tink I want ARCO - Perfect World.

14. ur wedding colour theme?
white, red n black...but since i picked beach wedding...i'll go with white n khaki.

15. do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife?
fine dining is a lotta work...n it's at the beach...so i'll go for spoon&fork&knife.

16. champagne or red wine?
hahaha...for the sake of answering the question - champagne, the color suits the wedding. in real life, sirap bandung sudeyh. hahaha!

17. honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
i want it to be right after the wedding.

18. money or household items?
money...i'll buy the household items myself with the money you give... ok? i want my household item to match the concept of the house.

19. how many kids would you like to have?
if possible, i only want two...a boy and a girl

20. will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
hahaha...yeah..only the part where we go around the town n have fun...not the honeymoon bed scene...kekeke

21. ur dream present fr0m ur future husband?
cute lil babies, him helpin around the house n just be the greatest father, friend, husband n lover.

22. whose wedding plan would you like to know next
everyone i tagged in the 1st tagged. tank u very much.

I'm a LAZY bum...

2009-11-22T21:19:00.000-08:00

Yeah...it's holiday now...and while writing this I'm having a major migraine with block nose. Everybdy's workg dis hols. But I'm planning to sit on my ass and just eat my heart out.

I AM A LAZY BUM AND I DON'T CARE.

I don't know if I wanna work or not.

I should right?

Well, we'll see about that.

Aaaahh~~~I'm juz a lazy ass.

Think u can change me?

Ciao bella~
'Atiqah S.

Bonjour Sweet Tooth

2009-11-13T00:20:00.000-08:00

I AM SO FRIGGIN GLAD THAT I FOUND THIS MOVIE!!!

ANTIQUE, THE ANTIQUE BAKERY MOVIE

The one I'm watching is the Korean version of Antique. Below is the picture of the line up for all 4 version of Antique.

It's a story about a man with a dark past named Kim Jin Hyeok (Joo Ji Hoon of Goong) trying to figured out his past. He doesn't remember anything except for during the time he was being kidnapped, he was fed and forced to eat cake everyday! That made the man he is now to hate sweet things mainly cakes. So, in the discovery of his past, he opened a bakery shop called Antique in hope that his kidnapper would show up one day.

Since he doesn't know anything about baking, he has to hire a pastry chef. While renovating the shop, a tall, skinny and beautiful man came in with an amazing resume. The problem was, that genius patisserie was homo. To make it worst, he was Min Seon Woo (Kim Jae Wook of Coffee Prince) the boy who he rejected his love confession back in their last day of high school.

Along the way, they met Yang Ki Beom (Yoo Ah In) who's a cake maniac and instantly became Seon Woo's sous chef. Also, Nam Soo Yeong (Choi Ji Ho) became Jin Hyeok's waiter as he was after all his bodyguard. Later on in the movie, came a Frenchman with the name of Jean-Baptiste Evan (Andy Gillet) who seek for Seon Woo his old flame.

This movie is filled with angst, a little smut, comedy, love and yes the most important thing the true meaning of friendship! Must watch. Whether you like or you don't like the actors or the gay-ness of it, just watch it. I totally loike it.

These are the handsome casts. From left: Nam Soo Yeong (Choi Ji Ho), Kim Jae Wook (Min Seon Woo), Joo Ji Hoon (Kim Jin Hyeok), Yoo Ah In (Yang Ki Beom) and Andy Gillet (Jean-Baptiste Evan)

This is the trailer:

This picture was taken during the xmas scene. How sweet~~~

Get ready for the gay scene people. Oh! Andy Gillet personally thinks Jae Wook is a good kisser.

Ok, so...Yeah try to watch it. It's fun. They say the Korean version is better than the Japs. I think the Korean vers. of the patissier is the most handsome.

Hahahaha...

Sem 5: Finn

2009-11-11T00:58:00.000-08:00

Finally~~~ it's over and done!

My super duper hectic harsh filled with obligations 5th semester for Diploma Printing Technology is now officially closed! Hahahaha...

I had 5 subject with 1 final paper and 3 projects; not to forget workshop for printing machine studies plus MUET. Did I do well?

Hmmm...out of all the subjects I took this sem, I am only confident with my MUET. Hahahaha...but I am not that too confident though...coz of my writing. It's been awhile since I write fictorial essays.

My final paper was Fundamental of Entrepreneurship. Hmmm...this one, my test and my project paper was good but the final examination...blurgh! That's all I can say.

My Minor Project is hmmm...I don't think I'm gonna fail it but I don't think I'll be able to score for this one. It seems like, there's a lot to do for my major. I am thinking of changing the WHOLE concept of my magazine. I know! Sometimes, I could be super duper crazee...

My Flexography subject. Oh this one!!! I DON'T EVEN WANNA TALK ABOUT IT!!! THIS ONE IS A TOTAL WASTE OF MY MISTER WONDERWALL's MONEY!!! How could he reject it bluntly! Aigo~~~he didnt even credit me for anything. Hey, I tried my hardest to understand your lecture in class, but it seems like you have a problem with yourself. Keep changing the way you the assignment to be performed week by week. I hope you let me pass at least with a C...I'm cool with it, as long as I'm not stuck with you next sem. Thank you very much.

My Screen printing project. This is the most tiring project I've ever done. 2o designs to do. Back and forth to the toilet to wash the mesh. Played with colors. Ohhh~~~the things I'd have to face while doing this.

Being a klutz like usually have been, poor Fana for being the victim of my clumsy disease. I'm so sorry F, but I love you. Hahahaha.

1st, water dripped from my wet mesh on her almost done Dora. Blue stains all over it. She was cool with it.

2nd, I was about to paste my finished design on the sliding door when I crossed over through her work area that I kicked the blue paint and it spilled on the floor, at her laptop, on her mouse and WORST on her unfinished design. Sorry F!

3rd, I held an open brown paint and just coz I heard F entered the house, I lost my gripped on it and it fell down on the tiles, bounced and splashed on the floor, the sliding door and on two of my finished design which I cherished the most.

Kene mandi bunga ni...Hahahahah!!! Aish...apa lah... See? Im a KLUTZ! But in the end, everything went well. En Razak loike my designs. Hehehe...he even picked out the one that I hated the most and said it's nice.

Below, are the photos of my cherished artwork.

Out of 20 only 9 I cherished the most. Here goes nothing~~~

Here's the closer look.

A logo with the letter G (G-Dragon? hahaha), This flower reminds me of bendera Malaysia and a shinigami.

A so-called 3D rubic, a cleaning bee (which I gave to Kim since she loves it so~ much) and a bomb? It's actually Oh! Fuck but I changed it to Oh! Luck.

A xjd trip tee which I painted a pixel heart with the word HEART in it, my old black long sleeve short which I painted two skulls on it and this one is my favourite, Kwon Jiyong. The tatts was the hardest.

My sister and I model it for you guys to see the actual shirt. Hehehe...Im proud of em.

So...dats it then. Nothing much. You won't be hearing from me till next year. I'm off for holiday this Friday. Holiday where? Back in my small hometown call Muar, Johor.

NAK MAKAN NAK MAKAN NAK MAKAN.

A GO GO GO!

Ciao Bella!
xoxo
'Atiqah S.

I was an Ass!

2009-10-27T17:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night was the most GEDIK moment of my life.

I threw a tantrum with massive feet stomping that made Kim said, "Apa td tu Kei? Mcm nak runtuh umah." Sorry love, I was so~~~ annoyed!

There's a rule that it doesn't have to be made or said out loud but to know by heart. There are two types of people that could like the same thing, have the same interest but the way they like it are obviously different. One type is the Cool type and the other is the Uncool type. I CONSIDER MYSELF THE COOL TYPE. I know, very arrogant and annoying but that's the fact, so face it!

BIG DIFFERENCE

Hijrah, Munchkin and I have always love anime, Japanese/Korean music and Japanese/Korean dramas but we are the cool type of people. We don't really show to others that we loike it but people know that those are what we're interested in. We don't have to really try to show people how much we're interested in those things like go and ask other people about it, or make other people speak in Korean/Japanese just because we know that they know it a little...

Aish~~~I don't wanna throw tantrum like a bitch yesterday night but I felt my blood boiled! The 1st time in my life I actually felt my blood boiled in my vain. Aigo~~~Dear Kak Ina, let's just keep it between us. Also sometimes, we don't share our fandom with other people...Except for those we like...So, do u follow me so far?

I don't know...It's just how I feel towards this matter. I remember last time when my sister and I discovered Linkin Park, we hated it when other people started talking about them. Because come on! I hate it man...I just...I gave up liking the band/singer/musician that I discover first if other people started to like them too and act all hard-core-fan-like! Aish~~~

Gah!!! I need to stop babbling. Actually, I'm depression! 95% guarantee I might fail a subject this semester. A stupid stupid stupid stupid subject! I freaking hate the subject! Actually, it's not the subject that I hate! It's the lecturer. I don't hate him...I just don't like his teaching method. He babbles like a drunkard and he changes his mind every week on our assignment.

Man! I gave up trying to figure him out! I seriously am! My reputation will crumble so~ destructively if I fail the stupid subject! Ayah, Ibu, Siblings, Munch and other fellas please pray that at least I got a C. Not C- but a C! I just another 0.03 more to get 3.50cgpa.

Ive been astray, It's time to go back.

Ciao Bella~
'Atiqah S.

Introducing my new Fellas!

2009-10-26T07:04:00.000-07:00

I've been so carzy about Big Bang now that hahahaha I became a total iVIP...I even join this fansite of them and totally made friends with awesome people.

Never would I thought I'd be exchanging phone numbers with internet friends but these people are a total nutters and fun people to chat with... hahahaha! Feels like we're bonding girls!

Name: Cecilia a.k.a Minky

Age: 26

Role: iBB Fansite staff & crazy writer for GTOP fics.

She is a total BB paparazzi. Give it to her she'll scoop the latest most freshest news of BB straight from the source into iBB. Full satisfaction. The only sane one here.

Name: Nur Dalyn a.k.a G-Dalyn

Age: 24 (tinks she's too old)

Role: The cool one.

She loves to call us kids. Mane tak rase diri dah tua. She is the cool one but meletop when her internet connection act up. She hated it when I use CAPs during the chat. I don't even know why but she got infected by me and my PIC in the fantasizing thingy. Hahaha! Always got stared at in the office because bwat benda pelik2 in front of the computer (orang suh keje, pi chat dgn ktorg bwat pe? Dah la we like to talk crap). Hahaha!

Name: Nurul a.ka. nurule (not much difference)

Age: 15 (having PMR dis year)

Role: The Maknae

This one sgt comel. She lives in Bintulu and goes to school on Sunday. Weird school. Though she's young but I don't feel awkward talking to her and she doesn't even try to act all cute and maknae-like with us. But since she's a minor, I feel a little guilty exposing her to too much smut. Hahahaha!

Cute.(Hey nurule, ur pic giving me blue text and underline la).

Name: Joanne Wan a.k.a Jyen

Age: 19 (same age as my brother and Seungri)

Role: Fantasizer

Jyen is Jyen! One hell of nut cracker! Hahaha! She's my PIC as in Partner In Crime for the Fantasizer Duo. We started the fantasizing and it infected the others. Great job Jyen! She's in college and she's very very very nuts! Thank God I could keep up with her. A total fantasizer... memang kuat berangan ni nak nak pasal G-Dragon. I start with a line then she continue with more linesssss... hahahaha...I like her. In time she might be my next close friend.

p/s: Jyen, hope u could go to Shine A Light. Be our Santarina.

Owh, check out her picture, she say ada skit similarities with the animated girl in GD's Butterfly MV. Seriously Jyen, you think too much. Hahahaha!

Ok...So doing this, I'm done with introducing my iBB/Skype friends. Hope we could meet for real for real one day. Minky kene belanja since she's the eldest. Our Unnie! Hehehehe...So ah~~~ lets go GDCrazee and have lotsa GDFun!

GO GO GO!

p/s: Minky, are you gonna be my Spelling Check machine? Hahahaha! Bnyk kali dh i edit my post ni...

Hectic

2009-10-26T06:10:00.000-07:00

It's coming to an end...this semester I mean...

So as usual, the final projects need to be evaluated and the final exams need to be seated...

Owh dang!

How hectic has been for me and my housemates...

We went day by day with less sleep just to finish months of project for a 30minutes evaluation...

Hahahahaha!

Ironic eyh?

Just like dancing...

You practice your routines for months, day by day, hour after hour...

Only to be shown for 3minutes?

I came to realize now that preparation is important...

You don't wanna look dumb in front of the clever people...

Aish~~~

I got it harsh...

Everybody here is still breathing though...

Great mind, Strong knees <-tanx Munch.

I haven't been updating my blog for the longest time now...I just don't seem to know what to write anymore in here. Since the incident last sem where I pour my heart and soul here got me in the most troublesome situation, made me promise not to say anything personal here.

I don't know anything current to talk about here. I don't wanna talk about politic or natural disasters or factorial...That's just not my style. Because talking crap is what I do.

I really miss home. I wanna be home with my mum and dad, hang out with my siblings and dine together with the good food cooked by my mum...waaaah~~~ Sweet Sour Fish...Yummy~~~

There are way too many things I wanna do. Im afraid that I can't do much for myself because I haven't been anywhere but here. My friends are all of the world name it; Jordan, Germany, Auckland...everywhere. My cousin is in Seoul but I am here, always here!

I need to get out! I have one final 6months to go before I graduated with a Diploma. After that, I'll use it as a one way ticket to success! I don't wanna go back so I just need a one way ticket. I'll work for my parents. I promise to give them a good living. *sigh* It's hard to be human being coz you want to be respected not hated.

Thinking about going away, I really do wish that my relationship with Mr. Wonderwall would stay long, long to the day that we die. Really I love him too much to even hate him for too long, to even let him go. 2years is not that long to fall so deep in love but within these 2years, we've faced trials and tribulations more than what we expected. Im tired to start over and like what we've promised; no matter what happens we'll be awesome bestfriends right?

if there’s an uphill, there’s a downhill

it’s too late to go back

i can’t let go

remember back in the day

i can’t trust others

don’t forget back in the day

i was a boy, with that fine voice

i shout to the world, shine alive

-G-Dragon, Sonyeoniyeo (2009)

Happy Raya 2009

2009-09-11T10:14:00.000-07:00

To my brother,
Thanks a lot for uploading this pitcha...
It's been awhile.

I don't know why, but I don't look happy...
Hahaha...I guess wanted to do something else other than taking a family photo...
How I've changed since then...
I don't remember what year but we've all grown up...
My brother who used to be a head shorter than me,
Now he's like a beanstalk.
My sister who looked so innocent now she's posh-ier than I could ever imagine.
Me? Hahaha...
I don't know.
My parents are old now, in that photo I'm guessing they are in their 40's...
Now both are in their 50's.

I think this year we need another family photo.
I miss home so~ much.

Happy Raya 2009
This goes to my family, my bf, my bestfrens, and all the other bloggers.
Also to all Malaysians and hahaha,
to Big Bang VIP's.

Ciao Bella~

This Is Very Random

2009-09-08T22:01:00.000-07:00

I know...

It's been awhile since I blog about something that's related to me. The last few blog posts was about some movies I watched and Big Bang my current fetish.
*kya kya*

I've changed thoroughly from last semester to this semester.
The first to wake up and the last to go to sleep.
Hmmm...
So what have I been doing staying up so late?
My last blog post I talked about Big Bang and I became addicted to them since.

I even followed this wordpress site called BigBangFansite (The One & Only).
Hahaha, yeah...
I am easily addicted to singers especially when it consist of handsome boys.
I even found a GD Dictionary which is uber cute and funny.

I've learned a few from it, something like:
GDNIGHT, GDDAMNIT, GDATTACK, GDBIAS, GDTASTIC and,
I even created one called GDFROST.

Stupid eyh.
Now, next topic Puasa.
This years puasa so far is quite ok.
Challenging in terms of I've got afternoon class and I have to walk under the bright sunshine.
Complete BLISS.
(-_-)"

My laptop is another case.
Fixed and wasted.
Yeah, RM300 gone just like that for something that I should've thrown in the vast ocean long time ago.
Patience.
Thanks to my sister for lending her laptop but I need to get mine ASAP.

My second aim is a new phone.
I mean come on, Kim has been a soul for lending her's to me but I can't use it forever right?
So, I've aimed this one Sony Ericsson's (I'm a big of SE) clamshell phone.
I am addcited to clamshell phones.
T707 blue color of pink color (anything goes actually).
The point is I want it bloody hell!

Lastly,
My dear cousin Amir, Seoul Korea,
I am still hoping for the Heartbreaker album.
I'll be waiting.

That's it.
Ciao bella~

Is it really gonna be mine?

2009-08-28T22:35:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah, that's G-Dragon's 1st Solo Album : Heartbreaker. I am in love with it. I wanted it so badly that I even opened a PayPal acc. However, I don't have a credit card to begin with. Sigh~

I wanted it so~ much that it made do something that I wouldn't've done before this. I asked my cousin Amir to get for me. Yeah, we were rivals. We didn't get along pretty well but now we've worked things out. I guess we've come to our senses that it's each others life. You know.

So, since he's currently staying in Korea and that album was 1st realeased in Korea itself, HA! Amiruru, please get it for me~

Yeah, so I told him I wanted it and that I'll pay him back and he said, "Yeah sure. I'll post it before raya." *thrill* can I scream?

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I'll be waiting for you. Please pray that I'll get it. I want it so damn much no matter how many people accusing G-Dragon for being a copycat-er. Who the fuck cares?

There are like more than a billion songs in this planet named Earth, you are original in your own way and if your music sound alike wth other people's what's a big deal? That's what we call inspiration.

Even Akon had a song with a verse sounded like R. Kelly's ignition. Nobody make a big deal out of it. So, just because G-Dragon is only 21 and this is his 1st album, you wanna diss him so badly? Take him down to the ground so that he'll never rise again?

You're wrong people. His V.I.P's are very loyal. That makes me one. Hahaha

Enough with it. May my cousin got it for me and before I knew it the postman's already at my doorstep delivering my precious Heartbreaker in my wide open arms.

Ciao Bella~

Tagged by Zarith

2009-08-26T09:23:00.000-07:00

Guey dipaksa bwat...
Siap dikenekan hukum WAJIB lg...
Hahaha...
Iyo la Mek, eden buek.

RULES :

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write answers to the questions and DON'T LIE. At the end, choose 20 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR LAST EX IF YOU COULD?
dat jerk? mati idup balik pun x akan!

2. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
black (tototaros)

3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?
yeah, on the cheek...close ones.

4. DO YOU HAVE A "THING" FOR SOMEONE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?
hahaha...i stil dnt get which frens list ure talking about...but if blogger, like na'ah.

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
real life? less than 10

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
i want only 2, a pair of em...but if my future husband wanted more...yeah sure why not...i'll enjoy the sex anyway.

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENT?
yeap! tho i dnt rili share much wit dem...i hold back dats me tp, sape nk bg aku mkn klu bkn diorg.

8. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE?
i LOVE my name. it means the chosen one...wlupun aku gune name Kei, tp 'Atiqah is the real thing.

9. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?
hmmm...my lips are sealed.

10. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
entahla...hahaha! oh yeah! medical check up I think...

11. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE?
Down The Road. Dey la tnye psl fon ni...hp dh xde tau...

12. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
10:30a.m.

13. WHAT WERE YOU DOING TWO NIGHTS AGO?
Assignment...what every student shud do.

14. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
No...but I like it when some1 play wit my hair GENTLY. bleh lyn tdo!

15. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO.
1st of all (Mek, congrats! dh setahun rupanye) hmm...graduate n get da hell outta here! I wnt go c Big Bang!
hahaha! *drool*

16. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM.
Last Sunday, before kaming back here. Windu Ibu~

17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
Not having the ability to look pleasant. hahaha! Ntah la, dh muka mcm ni nk bwat mcm mane...sentiasa kelihatan bad mud. kuikuikuikui.

18. IF YOU HAD $250 000, WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH IT?
buy new sony hp, get rid of dis laptop buy a new one, get Dr. Dre Beat headphone, buy lotsa shoes and jeans and bi rings then get a drivers license. the rest i'll save it for rainy days.

19. HOW LONG HAVE YOU WORKED AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
it's been abt 2 n a half year nw. being a student IS a job.

20. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
ah~ now I knw, Tom Andearson (MySpace) u mean? No, I hate him for no reason.

21. DESCRIBE THE UNDERWEAR YOU HAVE ON.
it's a boy short black with white lining. Comfy ='>

22. LAST THING YOU ATE?
a piece of telur dadar n a small portion of fred chicken

23. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
January coz it's my birthday but if I'm living in a 4 season country I wud say around November or December coz it's winter.

24. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
1st of all (Mek, apasal xske January? *marah*) I dnt knw, if u wuda ask me least fav day i'd say Monday!

25. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING SOMEONE BORROWED FROM YOU?
my black cardigan, borod n returned

26. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES NOW?
no one is...everybody is giving me a peace of mind today.

27. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
facebook.blogger.myspace(5minit pastu tutup~hahaha).twitter.YOUTUBE!

28. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
Mr. Wonderwall

29. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU MAD?
My laptop (dikira x? name die Acer Lovemachine)

30. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
yeah I wud. coz I love dem so much. but wud dey do d same for me?

31. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
hmmm...cold fresh milk, cold milo/chocolate/vico/ovaltine/quakes/oligococo, teh ais barli, air mata kucing

32. FAVORITE FOOD?
Kurma Ayam, Mee Rebus, Maggi Tomyam, Spaghetti-Os

33. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Ice Cream, Chocolate Pudding lots more actually

34. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
Nope. will go der to pursue my dream.

35. IF SOMEONE YOU HATE DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
yippie? *tgk kiri kanan* one word REMORSE

36. MANGSA SETERUSNYA

hmmm...
*Munch
*Loqman
*Nabil
*Burn
*The other followers and
*whoever stop by and read dis.

Ciao Bella~

All You Need Is Love

2009-08-12T08:01:00.000-07:00

Though I should've seen this movie 2years ago but being left far behind didn't stop me from watching this movie now, today. After knowing Jim Sturgess from the movie Another Boelyn Girl and 21, I dug him up and I found Across the Universe, 50 Dead Men Walking and Crossing Over.

My sister told me that this is a musical movie. Owh? Really? So, Jim Sturgess can he really sing? Surprise surprise yes! He can. Amazingly. All the characters has to sing in this movie. Somewhat like High School Musical and Camp Rock but those two are ridiculous! This movie is another direction.

You are completely in a different world. Scene after scene is amazing especially when the characters were dreaming of another timeline. The scene changes and it looked as if another mtv filled with graphics and awesome effects.

This story was about a young shipyard labour named Jude (Jim Sturgess) from Liverpool went to America in search of his long lost American father who fucked his mom till she got pregnant but abandoned her in Liverpool. His father worked as a janitor named Wes Hubert (Robert Clohessy) at Princeton where Jude made friend with a Princeton student named Max (Joe Anderson).

They took each other in their lives and became real good friends. Jude first met Lucy (Evan Rachel Wood), Max's kid sister on Thanksgiving when Max invited him for dinner. Jude got a small crush on her but knowing that she already got a boyfriend and he's got a girlfriend himself, he put it all behind him and followed the Princeton drop-out to live in New York.

They made a lot of friends there from the moment they rented a shabby apartment belongs to Sadie (Dana Fuchs) who worked as a singer (rocker) in pubs. As the story went along many characters appeared as well. Two more characters who became Jude's close friends were Jojo (Martin Luther McCoy) who became Sadie's lead guitarist/lover and Prudence (T.V. Carpio) who came in their apartment through the bathroom window looking all soaking wet and beaten up was immediately accepted to live with them by Jude and Max.

Lots happened during Jude's stay in New York. He and Lucy became lovers after her boyfriend died during the war, he got a job as an artist and did a lot of paintings with charcoal. Max was sent for the army, Prudence wandered off on her own after facing the truth that her love for Sadie won't work. Then Sadie and Jojo had a fight during their 1st official gig and after that Jude and Lucy also had a fight because Lucy was so into the War Stopping Cause and spending too much time with the cause boy.

This movie introduces three cameos:

Bono who played Dr. Robert

Salma Hayek played Bang Bang Shoot Shoot nurses and

Eddie Izzard played Mister Kite.

All songs in this musical are from The Beatles but has been remade and rearranged also re-recorded with the casts voice.

Please, watch this movie and enjoy it!

Ciao bella~

Gossip Girl's Casts Hidden Talent.

2009-08-03T10:08:00.000-07:00

Its all started with the finding of Cobra Starship's collaboration with Leighton Meester in Good Girl Go Bad. We (Kim, my sister and I) looked at each other in disbelief. That Blair Waldorf can sing? Like actually can sing? So, we went home searched the song on YouTube and yeah! There she was singing in that video.

After that I dig more about her and found out she actually had recorded 3 songs and in the making of an album. While searching for her, I saw a link to The Filthy Youth's video which the lead singer so utterly familiar to my eyes was Chuck Bass from Gossip Girl! Ed Westwick behind a microphone with a sexy guitar in his hands. Major!

Then today, when I opened my Myspace and saw pictures from Taylor Momsen's 16th bday, I automatically went and take a look. Okay! Another Gossip Girl in a band! She's the lead singer and no wonder on her sudden change of look in Gossip Girl. From the Queen Bee Wannabe to a Punk Rock Fashion Designer. Her band The Pretty Reckless is sure an awesome one.

Personally I think these three people Leighton Meester, Ed Westwick and Taylor Momsen really can sing and very talented in music! Check out these videos of them singing.

The Pretty Reckless - Bittersweet

The Filthy Youth - Orange

Cobra Starship feat Leighton Meester - Good Girl Go Bad
Unfortunately, Leighton does not have a official video of her own songs nor does she has any live performances yet.

p/s: Takziah untuk keluarga Allahyarhamah Yasmin Ahmad. As a Muarian myself, I am proud to have known such an artistic, creativity and extraordinary person like her. Her works were all masterpieces. Al-Fatihah~

Ciao Bella!

The Reader by Stephen Daldry

2009-07-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

When Kim gave me this dvd called The Reader, I didnt took that much interest in it. But, since there's nothing much for me to do, I decided to watch it. I was glad then when I was watching this movie, I was totally in a full interest mode.

The beginning showed Ralph Fiennes making breakfast for a long black haired woman who showed up naked before putting on a bathrobe. Then later, it was a flashback scene to where David Kross was seen vomitting in front of kate Winslet's shabby apartment.

Knowing Kate Winslet as in from my experience of watching her in Titanic, I knew very well that this movie (The Reader) was quite similar to Titanic with extra sex scenes. I must tell you truthfully, I am not bothered at all with the sex scenes. I understand that Stephen Daldry wanted to capture the intimacy and the deep love the characters shared in this movie.

Kate Winslet played Hannah Schmitz, David Kross played Young Michael Berg and Ralph Fiennes played Adult Michael Berg. This is a story of an adult woman's seduction (Hannah Schmitz) to a 15-year-old boy (Michael Berg) having an affair after she helped her when he was first ill of thhe contagious scarlet fever. Their affair ended after the summer but their love never ends.

When Michael Berg entered the Law School, he joined his other coursemate for a seminar where they will be attended a trial. As it happened, the trial he attended was for his lover Hannah Schmitz on the charged of a mass murder when she joined the SS Gang as working guard.

In their affair, Hannah liked being read to and before their intercourse, Michael would read to her. When Michael grew older, he had a fail marriage and a daughter. After his divorce, Michael was unpacking his things at his new home. He then found a book called The Odyssey. He remembered the time he had read it to Hannah. He then decided to tape all his readings and sent it to Hannah who was in the prison for the charged she was guilty of.

Hannah then learned to read from his tapes. The scene when she 1st heard the tape was I don't know, I almost cried. She then wrote him a short letter with very childish handwritting. She even knew then how to write her own name. After 20 years, the prison let her go. A week before she was discharged, Michael came to see her; telling her that she got a job and a small house and exactly putting a stop to their affair. That fair bit, was unbearable for Hannah, so she killed herself. When Michael cried, I was sad.

This definitely an awesome movie. I love it. David Kross started to look very ugly in the beginning of the movie but later on, he looks quite handsome and at some parts he would look a little like the late Heath Ledger.

Watch it if you havent.

Ciao Bella~